Testing tomorrow

I will take a hpt test morning when I wake up. I haven't had any spotting like I had with my first 3 failed cycles. I didn't have any spotting with my failed cycle last Sept, so I know that just because I haven't spotted, it doesn't mean I'm preggy--just high progesterone levels. I'm fully expecting a BFN. Since tomorrow is Sunday, I'll be going to church. I just really hope there's no baby being baptized or even any infants in the church. If there are, I'm afraid I might lose it and start crying. Last night when Lydia was getting ready for bed, I realized just how much she no longers looks like a baby, makes me sad. Beta on Monday, so only a few more days of agony. I'll probably start AF on Thursday, Thanksgiving Day, oh joy!!!