Tomorrow is the day, take 2

Tomorrow is the day that we will have our last 4 embies thawed. I'm so ready for tomorrow to come and go. It's scary to know that tomorrow is the day that we may know whether or not all attempts for another child is forever over or not. I don't have much faith that any of our embies will make it to transfer. I have a huge fear that none of them will survive the thaw, or that some will survive the thaw but will then die before we make it to transfer. If any do survive, we will have the transfer on Wed. I hope and pray that we have something to transfer and that I get a BFP. If I'm just going to get a BFN, then I would prefer to not even make it to transfer. I had an u/s last week and my re said my b/w levels were great and my lining is great also. I can't help but think, so what if I don't have any embies to transfer. I've always had a great lining and crappy embies. Why can't I have just one more embie to make a baby? I'll be on pins and needles waiting for my clinic to call tomorrow to let me know how the thaw went. Hopefully I won't have to wait all day if it's bad news. I'm sure I won't get any sleep at all tonight!!!