Going crazy!!!!

Last night dh told me that he'd be home from work by 3pm. It's now 3:45 and he's still not home, GRRRRRRRRRRR!!!! Normally I wouldn't care, but I need to go to the store to get something for dinner. Lydia is sleeping so I can't go until he gets home. I called and left him a voicemessage, but haven't heard from him. Plus I want to get a different brand of HPT to take in the morning(yes, I know it won't change the result, but damn it, I want it to). Dh drives me crazy, because he is NEVER and I mean NEVER on time. No matter what it is that we are doing, he is always late. Drives me crazy. Even if I tell him hundred times that we need to leave at a certain time, he's never ready on time. I hate always being rushed and late because of him. He knows it will piss me off, yet he doesn't care and doesn't try to be on time. Then he acts like I shouldn't be pissed when we're always late because of him. Today is NOT the day to push me. I'm feeling crampy, didn't sleep well last night and am EXTREMELY pissed about this mornings bfn and non-spotting. Dh was in the room with me this morning when I got the BFN. Most dhs give their wives and hug and kiss when they get a bfn, did dh do this? NO!! Jerk! He doesn't really care to have another child and didn't really care to do another cycle, so I know he's happy about the bfn. Like all my other bfns, I have to suffer in my pain alone. I'm so damn mad!!! I want to scream and cry, but can't. Maybe tonight when I take a shower I'll let it all out. He better get here soon!!!