Time moves so slow

The day isn't even half over yet, and I just want it to end already. I want it to be tomorrow morning so I can POAS again and HOPEFULLY see a BFP. I KNOW darn well that I'll most likely get another BFN, but I'm still hoping that somehow I'll see that second line. I think this whole thing would have been alot easier to deal with if I had never started to think that I could be preggy. It just sucks sooooo much wanting to be preggy and knowing that most likely I never will be again. There's a newbie on the parenting after de board that I'm on who is also getting her beta on Tues. I bet anything she'll end up preggy with twins and lots of high quality embies in the freezer. I hate, hate, hate that we didn't end up with better quality frozens!!! How the heck do the 2 previous couples who used my donor get twins with lots of extras in the freezer and we don't!!! I'm so very grateful to have Lydia, but after all the crap it took to get her, it sure would be nice to be able to have one more successful cycles. 1 out of 5 just plain sucks!! That's 9 embies that I've had transferred. I'm tired of ending up with crappy embies. My first donor gave us over 30 eggs if I remember correctly and we only got 2 lousy embies out of that many eggs!! Wouldn't you think statistically we would have been able to have more than one baby. My lining has always been great and I don't have any immunity problems. dh has also had sperm dna and other tests done and he's fine. Yet, we still get crappy embies that don't even stand a chance. I'm sick of it. Honestly, I don't even think I want to bother doing another cycle with our 4 frozen embies. Whats' the point, they're worse quality than the ones we used for this cycle. It'd just be even more money down the drain. I can't take the emotional drain anymore. I just wish this day, week would end already. Next Spring/summer I'm going to have a massive garage sale to get rid of all of the baby stuff we won't be needing anymore. I had thought to save some stuff for my SIL, but why? We had to buy almost everything we needed ourselves. Eventhough she claims to never have any money, she still goes on several vacations every yr, goes out to movies, concerts, and gets a fancy new car. Screw it. We don't/can't do any of that, so I might as well sell all the stuff we spent thousands of $$$$$$ on and get something nice for us!!!