Tomorrow is it

As much as I've wanted tomorrow to get here, I'm also dreading it. I've always wanted a couple of kids and have always thought that some day I'd have them. Even before I had Lydia, I always thought that once I found a good donor, I'd be able to finally have a couple of kids. Tomorrow all that comes to an end. I have to accept that I will never have another baby. I love Lydia with all my heart and even though I knew our embies weren't that great, I still had hopes of being able to give her a sib. I hope when she gets older she doesn't hate being an only child. I don't want her to feel odd because we had to use DE to conceive her. I thought having a sib who is also from DE would help with acceptance. I hate having to go through IF.